(1) Closure is a weird thing. It is hard. Yet sometimes it is the greatest gift you can give someone,because that means you truly can let go,move on and be happy. You can be at peace with yourself.
(2)I am happy now,happier than I have been in months. Somewhere I understand that I have figured out something that I'd been cracking my head over. Figuring things out make me happy. I have to know stuff to be happy,whether it be studies or work or relationships. As far as I am concerned,not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.
(3) I had an almost Carrie Bradshawesque epiphany while talking to one of my closest friends yesterday. I didn't used to believe in having sex without love or commitment,the way most men do it. I mean,I have come across it in movies or books or serials or hearsay,but didn't really believe that was possible. A very recent experience,revelation, whatever, from a highly trustworthy source changed my perspective and opened my eyes to such a possibility. This was how the above mentioned conversation went.
Me: If men can do that,then why can't women?
He: You really think so?
Me: Well,yes I think.
He: I see...you have never been in love.
Me:No I have,I have just been desensitized and disillusioned too many times for comfort.
He said again: You have never been in love.
Me: Have you?
He just smiled. At this point,I almost expected him to say "Abso-fucking-lutely". But still,that smile was enough.
wat is Carrie Bradshawesque ?
ReplyDeletehey u got some flirting sites as ads ;)
Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the city :)
ReplyDeleteOops...sorry...that's Google not me ...
I hate it when someone says - you haven;t been in love! its like rediculing what I feel by some third stranger.
ReplyDeleteP.s - I loved this post, not random at all!