Rant Shmant....

This is a rant,I am ranting..Feel free to stop me,but I won't... so...This is directed at my favourite cousin and best friend (like hell). I am too chicken to say this out loud,partly because I am afraid that if I say out this loud,I might cry etc and partly because he has a lot of bulk on me(lol). So let's hope that he reads this and doesn't give me hell.

So here goes...

G(my coz sis) and I spent three years of our lives trying to get your life back on track. We lied to the whole world so you don't get into even worse trouble than you were already in. So you,don't get to tell me that I am unsupportive. You tell me that you have a paper due and haven't done it yet,I sit on your head till you do it. If you tell me that you don't feel like going to office,I come and kick your ass till you get out of bed. That is me being supportive. I don't do pyjama hugging parties or listening to sad stories when you get drunk. But I bloody well did that so you will get back to normal. You are not a baby,you are..well...old...When a girly girl screws you,you don't cry running to mommy and you bloody well don't do anything stupid to yourself. You Deal With It, on your own terms obviously,nevertheless,deal with it. 

You have no idea how scared we were that day,you were barely conscious.When they brought you into the hospital,we thought you were dead. We were too scared to even call Uncle. And then week after week we lied to everyone,explaining why you weren't coming home on weekends,FOR TWO MONTHS. You think that has been fun??? And then when you did come home, we sat out every night listening to you telling the same story over and over again and again...for months...G and I never went out at the same time,leaving you alone. We always made sure that one of us was always with you,no matter what...because we were scared to...Do you know what it feels like to be worrying about some one you love,every moment of every day,scared,petrified,that when you come home,there is no guarantee that that person will still be alive??? So please forgive me if I am less than thrilled when you tell me that the same girl who screwed your life is back on the scene and you are thinking about picking up where you left off. Its your life and if you wanna screw it up your ass again,fine,go ahead,be my guest,whatever...Just don't expect me to watch,or applaud you from the stands...because you can bet your life that I will kill you before I have to do that. 

Oh yeah,and you don't get to tell me what this person or that person had to say about you guys getting back together...because he/she never had to see what G and I saw,never had to see you half-dead or in the most pathetic disposition I have seen another human being in...

THE END