My blogger friend Raaji says that "drinking is a form of suicide where you're allowed to return to life and begin all over the next day". Well,apparently,that is a favour not granted to me...like many else...Well,so what's new...Right...
P and I broke up Saturday night...in a drunken haze(me),in a sleep-cum-angry haze(him). Long story short,I was quite drunk to think straight and we threw around a lot of words that probably meant nothing but...well...I don't know if a come back from something like that is possible. Ya well, that's that I guess. And I got my first ever taste at moping in my PJ's. So I slept for about 30 hours straight and then started to watch Sex and the City all over again when I felt the water works were about to start. Well,that wasn't(read isn't) much better either because that being my bible,reminded me of all the reasons I thought this was 'the one' and the water works started anyway.
The worst part about the whole break up scenario is some of my close friends. They are all nice and sweet and soothing and all you'll find someone else and I think this is what you should do and etc etc...I mean,I know they are well-meaning and all that,but,...am like,hellooooo....I am not changing clothes here,it was a relationship and was my most serious one so far...so please have the decorum to just not push me into the singles swimming pool already...
Seriously I am tired,exhausted,physically,mentally,emotionally...I have been dating for 7 years,been in 3 relationships,one of them actually serious and in love etc etc... I know I'm acting like I'm 70 years old...but really am tired with the whole dating business...I think I'll be one of those cliched "Old woman with a cat"(or rather,dog in my case)..Life would probably be much simpler that way...
i m not sure whether this is correct or not, but being single is so simple.. But thats how i ve felt..
ReplyDeleteLiked the second last line very much, especially, the one in parenthesis.
perhaps not when you consider what u gave up to be simple...
ReplyDeletethanx :)
yeah i do agree. My statement may befit for all those who have not opened an account...
ReplyDeleteAnd that is why I wrote that post. Alcohol has the ability to screw up a lot of things.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry this happened to you. If you think that you might be able to fix it and he is worth the fixing, then you should give it a try. If not, then you are just going to need time to recover. It is not going to be easy but it will be OK at some point. Its like a wound - you cant magically make it disappear, you can only put bang-aid on it, and that is all you need to do and it will heal on its own. I wish you all the best.
:-)
@Dj lol
ReplyDelete@Raaji thank u... well...let's see what happens...
This is all I have now - a Hug (virtual :( )
ReplyDeleteThanx honey :)
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