Random things I feel like writing anyway...

• I am something of a masochist sometimes. Deliberately I sift through memories,old diary notes, photographs,messages that have hurt me in the past (or do so now), those I'm sure will only hurt more no matter how much ever time has passed or will pass. All the same,I cannot resist doing so...I just can't stop myself from taking that painful walk down the memory lane...

• Sometimes I feel as if what we really need is some time off from ourselves... yes that's right , not for ourselves but from ourselves...from all our thoughts,fears,feelings.. Isn't it rather unfair that the only person we can't really ever block out, not listen to, is the one person who constantly nags you every waking moment of the day, and some times even in sleep... At times  there is so much congestion in my brain that I feel like ripping off my head just for some mental peace. It is as if my brain is under constant attack from various thoughts and fears and insecurities... I don't think I am an isolated case... We think too much and worry too much and fear too much that we have turned our own heads into our worst enemy. At most times,I would give just about anything to get out of my own head. My head,my mind,my thoughts...they are the greatest of all evils. Other people can only talk to you,...your own mind plays such games with you,messing up your whole system...People you can avoid,but your mind...you have absolutely no choice than to stay with it...

• I have heard people compare love to a battlefield of emotions and egos and conflicting personalities...Personally I think it is a suicide mission. If it doesn't work out,it almost always kills some part of you. More over, it is something you jump into,without contemplating the outcome. I think I am something of a rookie when it comes to love. Over the years, I might have gotten older, but none the wiser it would seem. As I said to one of my friends lately, within the age of 21, three men have decided that I am bad news on the romance front. So I really don't think there is much hope left. And frankly, I couldn't care less as of now. I am still reeling from the after effects of the last one. Cuttu says that life shouldn't be this complicated at this age. Well, mine is...what to do !!