It should be really easy to trust yourself rather than someone else. But that is a challenge I have been facing for few years...(Read that as the better part of my not so very long life...). I make up my mind or have made up my mind to do that a hell lot of times...but then when the actual test of time comes...I just give in...It shouldn't be that difficult right??

For 21 years I regarded myself  the most important person in my life...that's the way it should be right??? But sometimes  I get the feeling that, that is all talk nowadays, that I put so many people before myself...I think of what someone might think if I do certain thing etc. That's quite disturbing for me, because I have never NEVER cared a shit as to what anyone thinks about my some deed or the other...I have become weird...no...weirder...sighhhh :-S

I keep telling myself that I'm better than that...that this might be just a phase that is going to pass before I know it...But honestly...I'm a little worried...and more than all,for my sanity...because now apparently I am running out of things to worry about, so am thinking about things that are not at all important to me or anybody else and worrying about them...Nice right...!!!

PS:  I am yet to wake up so I have absolutely no idea what this post is about!!!